So I just started to watch Coffee Prince ever since we came back from California, and today around 6-7 a.m, I just found out that the guy who plays Min Yup died on August 21st. I really can't believe that he's gone, I refuse to believe but its real... It really makes me sad, he's my favorite in Coffee Prince, and I haven't finished it yet, so it'll be really hard to put his death aside. Maybe I'll cry here and there, cause I'll see him and see that in the drama, he's such a nice, sweet, silly person and will refuse his death *sigh* why does it have to be him? 
Well, after I started to watch the drama, I decided to see him when I go to Korea, but I can't see him in person now, gosh writing and thinking about this makes me cry... but after what happend to him, I will still go see him, no matter what! I want to pay my respect to him. I'll probably have to hold back the tears for him, well like others would say "He's in a better place now" and I do believe he is in a better place but did he have to leave so early? Gosh he was only 27! Anyway, I hope he rest in peace. Lee Eon will always be with us.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Just a few things... Current mood: blank Category: Life Well in a few hours we're gonna leave but i'm not that excited anymore. Why? I have no idea... I still want to say so much more things to him but he wouldn't have a care in the world right? Gosh why do everything i do mess up? I just wish someone would tell me what i'm doing wrong? Am i suppose to sit around like the special or something? Cause i could do that... I really wish i could things around again, but i know that's not possible. The best way is to start all over but i'd never the chance to start over... but everyone always given me chances in life, and i always end up messing up, like my parents, they've given me lots of chances when i was younger, more then i was suppose to get you know, i remember clearly what the 1st and 2nd chance was - I don't want to say it on here - but it became a habbit over the days, months, and years of just doing things that wasn't right. I should really stop thinking about things esp myself... i dont' like conceited people and i really dont' want to become on either so, it'll be awhile until i get on again, i know i said that like a million times but who knows you know...

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Doggy Current mood: happy Category: Pets and Animals   So we drove all the way to WI, but i thought that it was in MN but oh well. anyway, she's sooo cute >< we dont' know what to call her so we're gonna call her doggy for the time being :P I usually don't like dogs but some how i'm used to them now :] she's crying at me now so i'm gonna go now :]

Summer is coming to an end soon, a week from now is when my senior year of high school starts. I kept thinking to myself that school wasn't going to scare me but when its near, i start to freak out and get nervous and start to think, will i pass high school? will my classes be hard? what am i going to do about world history, and math cause i falied? *sighs* gosh this is going to kill me, thank god i decided not to go to college... Yes i know its a bad choice but, i've had enough about school and when i go to korea, i'm going to go and audition at different entertainments. I mean school isn't really the place for me, and even if i do make it into an entertainment in korea, i really don't mind if i have to wait a few years to become what i want to become, because its what i want to do and be, so school is no place for me, and it'll probably take as long as college will.
My summer was okay but not the best. This year we went to California for vacation, it wasn't the best vacation, because we had some family problems, i really dont' want to get into details but all i know is that one of my very close cousin is no long my cousin anymore. She's a back stabber, and whatever we tell her that's a secret, she always have to tell someone that would exploied someone. She's obviously a minor (15) and she's dating someone who she met online and met only once. He's 24 if you must know, me and my older sister told her a million times that they can't be together cause he's 24, and she just keeps saying that age doesn't matter but it really does cause anyone could report him and he could go to jail. Why would he go just because he's dating a minor? Well they've been having phone sex and she's thinking of having sex with him, so if they do do that .anyone could report him, but anyway, she's not my cousin anymore so i don't care what she does or who she does :P
Back to my summer, it's my first summer without Tommy, yes i miss him now and then, but i guess we'll never be together again because, i don't know. It'll be a year in March, since we broke up. I regret it everyday now that i'm not with him. Yes it was my fault that we broke up in the first place. Why? Its because when i tell others about how i feel towards him, they always say that i should break up with him and when i talked to my older sister about it, she was on the phone with her BF and they both were putting things in my head to break up with him and maybe a couple of months after we broke up, he said that he was trying to break us apart and because he didnt' like him. Gosh love sucks eh? Well i really wish that i we could start over, and i did tell him that but he said no, no he didn't say "no" but he kind of ment no, because he's afraid that i'm going leave him again and that i have to prove to him that i won't by visiting him, because of the 2 years we were going out, i've never been to his house, and its nice to have him over and all but i guess its hard for him to come, and he even got into an accident, and i feel that its somewhat my fault because he was tired and my parents was waking up and they didnt' know that he was over so i was afraid that we would get caught so i told him to leave and he fell asleep behind the wheel, gosh, maybe this is my punishment, having bad family problems and no Tommy, cause i basiclly almost killed him, now i feel worst then worst... I don't know, maybe i'll ask my older sister to take me to go see him sometimes, cause i don't have my permit or licese yet, or maybe i should get that done this year :] but then what if he already found someone else... *sigh* oh well i guess i should move on if he already has some one new huh? but then i can't imagin being with anyone else other then him...
Well this summer of mine is never going to end, cause so many things happend LOL well i just hope that summer was longer, and that i didn't waste some much time staying up for like days and doing nothing... well i should have all the fun i could have before school starts right? LOL well i think i wrote too much :P i should stop and write more someother day :] Goodbye.

I'm too lazy to write more so here's the recent one's; July 17th, and July 20th





Thursday, July 17, 2008 4:10 PM

Why is he such a drama queen? Current mood: moody   So why is Tommy such a drama queen? Gez, just cause i can't make it that don't mean you have to be all bitchy! If i could then i would be there now BUT! there is no one here okay! i don't have connection like you, gosh you know what! for your present, i would punch you in the face! You know what he said to me. he said "can't come visit me for my bday. Then no point of ever visiting me..." what a freaken lameo~ gez and people say i'm short temper, well that's cause I'M FREAKING PMS-ING! i was gonna ask my dad if i could hang out with him BUT now i won't cause he's being a drama queen... *sigh* okay i may mean what i said now but i'll won't mean it later.Why? cause its how i am, i get mad, say i wanna kill someone, then later we're firends LOL Yes i'm moody, don't need to tell me twice...

Sunday, July 20, 2008 2:02 AM

I’m sorry everyone... Current mood: distressed Category: Life   Is there something wrong with me? Why? you may ask, i don't know  but all i know is that everyone around me is avoiding me, and always getting mad at me... But i don't understand why everyone is avoiding me. Is it cause i'm in the way? or is it something i did? or say? I guess no one really wants me around, even my own family... I'm sorry everyone esp. Tommy that i'm such a bitch, i usually don't mean the things i say, but i never thought that it'll turn out this way. I think its best if i just leave everyone, i don't deserve to live among everyone else. I'm the lowest of the low, i'm worthless to everyone around me, i'm not saying it cause i think, but i know that i am... I'm sorry and that i'll never bug anyone ever again... I know it isn't much but is all i can say and do, so I'm so very sorry. All i wanted to do this pass week was tell Tommy that i still love him, but i know that he don't want to be with me, so i just have to forget about it, since he already moved on, and no i never had moved on! i lied to him about it cause i don't want him to keep thinking about a stupid perosn like me. I'm sorry Tommy, i'll never bug, call, text, and even write to you ever again... I'm sorry, its all i can say. I know you must hate me by now, so distant yourself as far away as you can from me... This is probably the last time you'll hear from me, Bye and take care. This maybe the last blog i'll write in awhile or forever, i dont' know. I just don't want to take up anybody elses time. So bye...

Sunday, June 29, 2008

SAY WHAT?! Current mood: annoyed Category: Blogging   So yesterday was my B-day  i wasn't planning to have a party but omma called people over and we had a party ahahaha it was fun i had fun, but then there was some drama when everyone was leaving -_- i don't know if it'll get better or not but i hope everything works out for them :] I GOT TO SEE WALL-E! hehehe  it was so adorable! OMG! THE STUPID SMILIY FACES IS MAKING ME STRESS OUT! >< I CAN'T FIND THE ONE THAT IS UPSIDE DOWN!  i looked through it like five times now! >< OMG I FOUND IT! gez that took forever! ahahaha i'm happy now  kekeke well i'm gonna go now since we're gonna go and watch kung fu panda or wall-e again  also mad at stephanie and eric for losing my camera and not giving it back to me cause he "forgot" it

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Bitch! Current mood: angry Category: Life So mom is being a bitch about hanging out with my own cousins and my aunts! OMG stephanie said 100 times that we dont' give a damn about their problems and all she keeps saying back is "i dont' care!" its like GOSH STFU! Yes i hate her BUT she's my mom so i'm skrewed! DAMN THIS CRUL LIFE OF MINE! i want to punch someone sooooooooooooooooooo baddly! Well if she thinks that she can keep me away from my cousins and aunts, then she better think again! UGH i'm just soooooo mad! I'm sooo gonna move the hell out, OH! and she even said that dad should find a house for him, me, steph, and suki to live in cause she's "tired" of living with us cause we dont' "listen" pshhh not like i want to live with you either! i'd rather DIE than live with you! you can take tammy and michelle with you and see if they do anything cause they are freaken spoiled brats! ESP tammy! LIFE'S A BITCH and so is everyone else! (i dont' mean it if i never said i hate you okay!)

Thursday, July 10, 2008

My world is coming to an end... Current mood: depressed Category: Life   For some odd reason everyone around me has been talking about me behind my back... i know everyone has this problem but its just crushing me, and it makes me feel useless. And when ever i talk to my sisters they give me this additude like they don't want me around, and i guess its fine with me... i wouldn't want someone like me around either. I dont' know why i'm so depressed, maybe everyone IS sick of me being around. No one knows or even care about how i feel but its okay i guess... i dont' want others to feel bad for me, i just kind of want people to forget me, like i never existed you know. Everytime my sisters talk behind my back, i can hear them cause they say really loud or in the hallway... i guess a person like me isn't worth having around or worth talking to... so who ever is reading this can stop reading if they want to, i'm not forcing you to read it... sorry for wasting your time everyone, just forget about me and who i am, i don't expect texts or calls from anyone anyways. i guess this is it for me, good bye everyone. it was nice knowing you all!

OMG I'm in love with her books! And and I so can't wait until the movie "Twilight" comes out in Dec!!!!!
It comes out on Seung Ri's 18th/19th birthday!!!!
I'm really excited!!! I really want to read the second book but Michelle said that she "promised" Crystal first :'[ *sigh* I took 4 days to read it... Why? Because its like almost 300 pages and Michelle said that the second one is like 500 and the third is like 600 and so on...
Well I really should get going ^^ I just wanted to spazz out on the book somewhere, Oh and Edward is sooooo HOTTTT! He's from Harry Potter, the one who died when they went through the maze thing for the cup game or semething like that ^^ but then again, he isn't so HOTTT in Harry Potter, I mean how Stephenie talked about Edwards "crooked" smile OMG it was perfect! The way she discribed him, just made me fell in love :]

 So in a bit my appa is gonna take my oppa and unnie to this aduition for a movie and i'm just tagging along like i usually do, and my omma is sooooo annoying! she's yelling at me to get up and get ready? i mean c'mon! i'm just tagging along! anyways i'm dead tired -_-;;

Aduition for what movie? you may ask. Its for this one movie that has "hmong" people in it and its a hollywood movie. i dont' remember exactly what its called but its like Grand something, its a name of a car that's all i have to say. Well, its about this family and the brother of the family is being pressure by some gang members to join their gang and when he doesn't his smart sister gets raped by them. You may think "how come if she's smart then, why did she get raped?" i don't really know ither O_O but it think she gets kidnap? anyways, when my unnie was reading off the peoples charaters, the role of the brother matched my brother, well he used to look like the discription, cause the guy had long hair and a beard and stuff. And the role of the sister matched my unnie, except that she isn't that smart LOL j/k i dunno but i wouldn't be able to see some other hmong girl playing the role because all they do is care too much about what they're wearing or about how guys look at them O_O i mean c'mon, i just threw on some clothes for christ sake!

Well i'm going to go now ^^ i'll tell more about it later and i'm not really sure if that's how the store line goes for the movie ^^;;